Fake Therapy

My mom perked right up after we started playing fake therapy on the phone. We were making up people and their stories and then deciding how we would deal with them. We even have an assignment before we meet tomorrow: she gets a man that has been cheated on by his wife, and I get a man who cheated on his wife. Fairly successful, middle-aged white men. And she said we have to have it solved by tomorrow; I don't think that's going to happen. It's complicated!

damn it!

Where is my special friend?! I miss him! I lost at pool tonight. I played okay, but the 5 I played was way better than me.

Genealogy

My mom just told me that I'm a relative of FDR. Cool!

Impatient

Let's go let's go let's go let's go let's go!!!! I don't like sitting around waiting!!

Dirty Bastard

Have you ever played the 'is my hair too dirty to go out?' game? ... No, me either. Of course not. Gross.

Anxiety

My anxiety level seems to have been rising lately. I'm not exactly sure why, although I have some ideas, I suppose. I should probably work on bring my anxiety back down. Maybe I Should start doing yoga again.

dinner. blagh.

It's a damn shame when all you can think after eating a particular meal is, 'what a waste of calories.'

Another job description

Such important duties at these jobs I'm applying for: really great for self worth. "cleans white boards at the end of each day"

Job Descriptions

Oh my gosh. One of the jobs listed on CareerBuilder has as the SECOND bullet in a list of job duties: "Remove Staples." Seriously?!

Dinner

I guess I really needed my vegetables. We got Al's Beef for lunch/dinner, and none of that stuff sounded good, so oddly enough, I ordered a salad. It tasted delicious, and I gobbled it all up, so I think I was lacking!

Why am I always so sleepy?

I got 12 hours of sleep last night, and yet, getting out of bed was still difficult. I feel tired like I want a nap. This is not normal; why can't I ever wake up feeling refreshed and like I WANT to get out of bed? I hope that changes.

A Night at the Opera

I went to see Don Giovanni tonight. It was pretty entertaining. Crowded! Almost sold out. $9 for a glass of wine too! But Mom bought the ticket; she bought two so that we could go together, but she wasn't feeling well today so she cancelled. I couldn't find anyone else to go with, so I went alone. I missed her, but it was still nice. Luckily, I told her about discounted fare, so she didn't pay full price. Early birthday gift. Like a month early...well, I guess 3 weeks. Wow, that's coming up quickly.

Zoe (my adorable niece)

I don't have a current picture of her to attach to this, but tonight is her 10th birthday party of a Harry Potter theme. All the guests get a broom, and they're making potions (lotions, soaps, etc). I hope they have fun.

My precious nephew

Yesterday was Noah's 12th birthday (!) and he apparently told my brother, "I'm going to miss being 11. There was so much more I wanted to do." Awww.

Phone calls

I know I've complained about this before, but it's so annoying that Jenny wants to talk on the phone so much more than I do. She always complains that I don't talk to her, so I answer the phone, talk to her for about half an hour, say I'm going to go, and she complains...but we just started talking! No...that was half an hour ago. Anyway, after 5 minutes of complaining, she finally 'lets' me get off the phone but says call me later. I go, I don't know if I'm going to. If I have anything new to say, then I will call. She says, but I always have stuff to talk about; you don't have to say anything. Yeah, great. So, I say maybe I'll call. She goes, whatever, I'll call you at 8. And you WILL answer. I don't think so; but we'll see.

job (in)stability

Even my own mom is basically firing me. I was helping her by cleaning her condo, and because I kept having to reschedule, she said she is canceling our agreement. That feels like shit. I hope she changes her mind. Grr. Am I really this horrible of a worker??

Baby steps

I finally did some cardio exercise today. Only about 11 minutes (but who's counting?), but hey, it's a start. Waking up a little earlier just might be better for me. Who would have thought?? I've washed half the dishes and taken a shower too. Maybe it's all the coffee I drank? Let's see if I can do it again tomorrow.

Greetings

I am no good at the hug/kiss hello. I can't stand how it has become a thing. I mean, I guess for quite a while now it's been a thing. But seriously, I always go for the hug, and men go for the kiss on the cheek. It's very awkward; I've never gotten comfortable with the kiss/kiss on the cheek at the same time thing. So then, instead, I either hug them while they kiss me, or I kind of offer them my cheek to kiss while I do nothing, which feels like I"m some kind of royalty or something. If it's someone I'm close with, I don't mind; things feel natural, but with acquaintances, it's very awkward. And everyone needs to touch you in some form both when you say hello, AND when you say goodbye! Ugh. We're not that close.

yawn

I think I'm still depressed; why do I sleep so much? I woke up at 3 today.

I Broke the Fast

It was the usual nice celebration at my bro's and sis-in-law's tonight. Now I"m home, which is nice too; I'm having a pumpkin beer, but oh my gosh, it's freezing in here!!!! If you're reading this, I hope you're having a nice night.

rainy night

I dig the rain and lightning. I wanted to go out tonight, but it's kind of too late for going, taking the bus, etc. Darn.