GRRRR

I can't even get a job at a therapy center part-time. It must be because of my unstable work history. Darn it! I liked that place.

Hotel Insomniac

Whoa, I have some major insomnia tonight/this morning. I don't know why I feel pretty darn awake, considering...I think there are too many thoughts going through my mind.

News...huh?

I don't really understand the whole story about Obama's recess appointments to the National Labor Relations Board. I read the words, and I just kind of don't get it. I don't know what my problem is. I want to say that Boehner is an asshole for suing Obama, but I can't really back it up (even though I'm most likely right; he is an asshole).

brushing my teeth

sometimes brushing my teeth is so boring, that I make up songs or hum songs while brushing. Today I made one up that goes, "I'm gonna eat a vegetarian. I'm gonna eat a vegan tooooo. I'm gonna eat a vegetarian. Then I'm gonna be a carnivore!" addition: (or make it "then I'll make a carnivore stew")

Missing someone

In the spirit of privacy, I should probably not write someone's name here, but there is someone whom I have been missing lately. I have not seen him in a while and way less regularly than I used to. Grr. I'll have to change that.

Googley Doodles

I really have no interest in the World Cup,but I love the Google Doodles each day for it.

Cautiously Optimistic

I had a good interview today. Part-time position at a therapy center.

Dad and Me on 06/17/14

Caleb

I saw Caleb one last time before he left back for Cleveland. His quote from tonight which I thought was so funny: "I feel like a dog reading Ulysses."

Nice Weekend

Friday night I went out by myself and read at one bar, and met a girl named Lauren at another bar. Saturday was perfect weather outside, and then at night I got together with Caleb who is in town from Cleveland. That was a lot of fun; we just went for pizza and malts and took a long drive. Then this morning, I got together with my mom for breakfast. Dad had to reschedule getting together for Father's Day; that's Tuesday. Mom had a great idea for Father's Day. Since I can't afford to buy anything, write a list of qualities I learned from Dad...or something similar to that. It's a little syrupy, but who knows; he'd probably appreciate it. Oh and I have a phone interview tomorrow for a part-time position in a therapy office.

Made-up Jokes

When I was about 9 years old, I made up a joke that was something like: What is a pig's favorite vegetable? Brussel snouts! Yesterday and today, I've been trying to make up jokes about elephants. Here is one I came up with: What do you call it when a girl named Ella writes? Ella-font! (is Ellie-font funnier?) The really bad one I came up with yesterday was: How does an elephant listen? Elephantatically. (like, instead of emphatically). and What does an elephant do when a story is too long? He truncates it. What is YOUR joke?

job search ugh

There is no reason for a job description for an administrative assistant to be 14 paragraphs long. I don't think there is any job that would warrant that long of a description. Come on, people! Also, while I was on the phone talking my mom through an issue she was having, I missed a possible job. I got an email about a job from 5-9 tonight, and by the time I got back to them, it had already been filled. Damn. I really need to go back to school, get a master's degree, and then look for totally different types of jobs. Otherwise, I"m never going to be able to pay back my student loans, which is really stressing me out right now.

Heebie Jeebies!

A silverfish had the audacity to climb up my arm while I was relaxing watching Thor. UNCOOL! It scared the hell out of me, and worse yet, I DON"T KNOW WHERE IT WENT!!!

job search

The Onion is hiring. I applied. I have experience...We'll see. I hope they don't frown upon my resume being submitted at 1:00 a.m. on a Saturday night/Sunday morning.

The Elusive Job Search

This is ridiculous. I think I need to start looking for some different types of jobs. I just don't know what. I think I'm in need of a career counselor. Maybe DePaul has one I could talk to. When I got laid off from the Sun-Times, they provided someone to talk to about resume advice and job search advice. I think I would have benefited more from that service later rather than right away. Like now. Now would be helpful. But I think the idea was to get you back in the workforce sooner rather than later. Ugh, I'm a mess.

PooL

Tomorrow is pool championship or whatever it's called. It should be all kinds of annoying. Maybe because it's at night, it won't be so crowded and irritating. Here's to hoping! I should probably practice or something. Hm, maybe tomorrow: we'll see.

Meditation: Do it

" This Week's Tip To strengthen your heart, just say ""Om"" There is ample research on how meditation can help reduce stress, which helps the heart stay healthy. In a recent study that followed about 200 patients for an average of five years, researchers found that high-risk patients who practiced Transcendental Meditation (where you sit quietly and silently repeat a mantra) cut their risk of heart attack, stroke and death from all causes almost in half compared with a group of similar patients who did not meditate. In addition, the group that meditated tended to remain disease-free longer, reduced their blood pressure and had lower stress levels. Researchers hypothesize that some of the benefits of meditation come from stress reduction, which causes a reduction of the stress hormone cortisol and dampens the inflammatory processes associated with atherosclerosis or the hardening of the arteries. While the research focuses on Transcendental Meditation, there are a variety of ways to meditate including walking meditation, guided meditation via a CD or simply sitting and listening to the sounds around you. Starting out with just five minutes a day of quiet time with your thoughts can yield big results."

Old Notes of Boredom While at a Temp Job

In an effort to clean out two purses so that I could throw them away, I came across old receipts from 2001, a cashier's check for Commonwealth Edison, a movie ticket to My Dinner With Andre in 1999, an itinerary for my trip to Europe in 2001, and some dumb writing I did in 2000.

From the year 2000, notes I took while apparently very bored at a job. I think I was temping as a receptionist.

"1. Why are the smallest bugs the hardest to kill?
Question of the day: Why is there something rather than nothing? AAAAAAAAHHHHHHH
Answer: how the fuck should I know?

Maybe NOTHING is impossible. As a matter of fact, does "nothing" even exist? I'll look it up in a minute, but I THINK "nothing" means the absence of anything.

Relevant definitions:
Nothing: not anything; absence of anything perceptible; one having no existence; having no quantitative value (zero)

Nothingness: unoccupied space: emptiness.

When does NOTHING exist?
is air anything?
Has air ever not existed?
If air counts as "anything," and air has always existed, then nothing has never existed; or rather, there has always been something instead of nothing.

So maybe by "something", you mean something more than air. Well, air is made out of what? (nitrogen and oxygen)
atoms-->elements-->air

Is there anything that is NOT made out of atoms?
I don't think so.
So...now it gets tricky!
What's the word I'm thinking of? Morph??

Morphology: studying the structure of living organisms.

So, atoms are constantly moving, right? And the structure of things can change, right? (Probably based on the movement of the atoms). So, out of one thing, e.g. air, could come another thing, right? That's what I'm thinking of as Morphing or whatever that word is. The structure of things changes, which produces new things, and so on, etc. That's how "something" came to be.

FUCK IT, I DON'T KNOW. AHHH.

Everything is in a constant state of motion. With motion comes change. With change, comes the existence of new things.

Big bang theory: the universe originated billions of years ago in a violent eruption from a single point of high density and temperature. (Find out why)

Evolution: existing species of plants and animals have developed from previously existing species through a process of gradual change. (Darwinism comes later)....develop through natural selection.

I don't know what to write I don't know what to write, I don't know what to write. What to write? What to write? What to write? What to write? What to write?....

9:24 a.m. June 27, 2000
I don't think I feel like writing. I wish I was younger than 27. I wish I had never gained weight. I REALLY wish I brought a book. I wish I already had my degree. I wish I had money so I could buy a book and lunch and pay rent, gas, electric, phone. I wish this computer wasn't locked.

Hm. 9:28.

JOKES:
NONE. Oops. Just turned on radio full-blast!
Candy is calling. 'Nicooooolllle.' "Nniiccooollllleeeeee" "Look at us. Just look. Do it. DO IT!" 9:41!! WOO HOO
Look, a desk. There's a phone, it's black, there's papers, a computer. OK...at lunch, I will cash my check, and BUY a fucking BOOK! Maybe I can finish it by tomorrow. OOOOh, I SURE do hope so.
And tomorrow, I'll bring MacBible.
This is really good, in some ways, that I can't use the computer. More in touch with myself? Something like that.
It should be cathartic to have nothing to do all day...right? WRITE! Rrrrriiiiiggghhhhtt.

I should go play pool after work. Because I'M on a pool league (alternate, but still!)

How to upgrade to power pc.

Stuff to look for:
dresser, desk, pool cue, phone

Try to get job doing word processing or something I can do from home at night.

Good Words:

usufruct: law. The right to utilize and enjoy the profits and advantages of something, as property, belonging to another.

Mordacious-->sarcastic-->caustic

Aphorism: brief statement of truth.

Bibulous: Given to, or marked by drinking alcoholic beverages

Pretentious: Making claims of excellence. --extravagantly showy

Pedantic: Narrow concern for book learning and formal rules.

Sophomoric: immature and ill-informed, yet overly confident.

Prosaic: literal, ordinary, lacking in imagination.

Hubris: arrogance.

Recommendations
Merril Lynch, Chase, Prudential
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(and a few more calculation) My guess is that I was figuring out what I would make at that job.