Another picture from Christmas/Hanukkah

My mom, Noah, Zoe, and my brother!

Merry Christmas! Happy Hanukkah!

This is my niece Zoe and me. Can you believe she's already 12?! And I love her dress!

What to do???

Since the election, politically, it is nothing but bad news about the upcoming four years. The question is: What do we do with all this information? What do we do about it? Isn't there something that can be done to stop all this nonsense??

It's the End of the World as We Know It...

I am rendered speechless. I am so ashamed of this country, and I feel like I've been hit by a truck today. I wish I could say something intelligent about it or be optimistic or even strong, but that's not how I feel. I feel dismal: depressed, scared, etc. It's so bad...I mean, healthcare: gone. Fighting climate change: gone. Inspirational speeches: gone. Improving America's standing in the world: gone. The list goes on and on. What are we going to do to fight against this idiot asshole??

Early Birthday Party

I'm going to my mom's for an early birthday pizza party with her, brother's family, and sis-in-law's mom. Should be fun!!!

Birthday

My birthday is election day. Clinton better win.

I miss Tivo

We got an Apple tv because SOMEONE wants to cancel cable--wah! Although it hasn't been canceled yet, the Tivo has not been plugged in. I already miss it. I like the little dancing guy, and the sounds, and all my Charlie Rose episodes, and Frontline, and and...I guess I can watch some of that on Apple Tv, but I haven't experimented yet; I just haven't been watching tv, which I guess is okay. Slow news day/month/year for me. I hope you're well.

I feel out of the loop!

between not working, not going outside, not watching much news lately, I don't have very much going on. I should go swimming at my mom's place soon, but that involves waking up before 2. ugh.

Obama!

I'm really going to miss Barack Obama. He has been such a great President, and his speech at the DNC was amazing, and I would have expected nothing less. The DNC has been so refreshing after all the negativism and name-calling of the RNC. I know it's a strategy--probably the only one they have--but the Republicans spent their entire Convention bad-mouthing Clinton. The Democrats have been talking about policy and ideas and optimism. That's what it should be! Sure, Obama mentioned Trump several times, but the point of the speech was so much more.

Back to the Old House

I went back to the old bar that I haven't been to in forever tonight. I was hoping to see my old friend, but he was not there. Still, it was fun to hang out and see lots of people that I don't see very often anymore. But I miss my friend!

Melania Trump

OMG, I just watched Melania's speech from the Convention, and then watched Michelle Obama's speech that she plagiarized from. Unbelievable. How did her speech writers think that no one would notice that, and it just goes to show how...I don't know, I'm speechless.

Convention

The Republican National Convention is so frustrating to watch. I don't know if I'm too dumb to argue against all the bullshit that they're saying, or if they're just laying it on so thick that I wouldn't even know where to begin. Maybe it would be like arguing with a squirrel: kind of pointless because we would be on such different wavelengths. How can you argue with just wrong information, and emotional pleas? ugh.

History

Wow, what a crazy year in politics. Brexit vote: leave. Shocking! Seriously! I am so surprised; this truly is a big moment in history. What on earth will the rest of this year bring? Scary stuff.

Today

I'm trekking out to Schaumburg if my friend ever wakes up so that he can pick up his check. Then tonight, playing pool on new team tonight for second time. Hopefully, I keep up the winning streak. I'm not holding my breath though.

To Sleep, Perchance to Dream

I've been sleeping like crazy lately. Get this: I went to bed at 10 last night, and aside from being up for an hour or so a couple of times, I woke up at like 6:15 tonight. Wtf?? So, now here I sit at 8:30 p.m. having my morning coffee. ugh.

Stress dreams

even though I don't work, I still manage to have stress dreams about work. One wasn't about a work: it was about this person who had some disease where he looked kind of like a monster or something, and everyone at the theatre was applauding that he got to sing in this back part of the theatre, and I was like, "why don't they let him have his own show on the main stage?" Everyone just laughed. Grr. Then I had a dream where I remembered the name of my boss at the Cosmetic Center in the 80s, and I thanked her for being so nice after so many mean managers. That was a true story, only I never told her. Then I forgot the other dream, but it was about work and stressful. Blagh. I think I need a new paradigm about work.

It's Never Enough

I can't just still still and be content. Instead of enjoying the now, and having a nice evening indoors, I'm always wishing there was more: wishing it was earlier; wishing I was going out; and so on. I need to enjoy being at home more, I guess. It probably stems from not having a regular job. I'm at home too much.

stuff

I've been having song dreams in the last 24 hours. One had a song that went, "Grab a magazine,and cover it with mayonnaise." Then another dream had one that went, "It's not that kind of soup." Weird. Maybe my sub-conscience is telling me to be a children's song writer or something. Also, in politics, I'll be sad if Bernie Sanders is already out of the race after tonight. He's a great candidate, if a little unrealistic.

Dream

Oh yeah, and I had a dream last night where I made up a joke: I said, "Balls. They just circle around you." pretty dumb.

On WEEEE

I'm so sick of being in. I'm so bored!!! Although there was an interesting documentary on tv about bipolar disorder and psychiatry. That was fun while it lasted.

In Dreams

Sorry if you don't like hearing about people's dreams, but I want to have a record of funny dreams. I had one two nights ago that I was listening to an NPR interview, and the hostess was like, "this young girl can not tell the difference between a square and a rhombus. However, since the last time we spoke, you have become sexually active, by way of masturbation. Is that correct?" "Yes, that's correct." "And about how many times have you masturbated compared to the 15,000 of Boutros Boutros Ghali?" Then I woke up. The other dream the next night was that a girl I worked with told me that I should be an egg dancer. Don't ask me what that is.

Dream Joke

I had a dream last night where I made up a joke. Let's see if you think it's funny. "I had a nasty dinner tonight. It was pork shoulder. It was cold." Get it? Like getting the cold shoulder?? Is it funny? I thought it was kind of funny.

Again Again!!

Well, I stayed out late drinking a little too much last night, and now I'm going out again tonight. I kind of don't want to, but my friend needs to be saved from his roommate who's being impossible. i'm picking him up at 5 though; what on earth do you do at 5:00?? That's too early!!

Happy Birthday, Mom!

It' my mom's 75th Birthday, if you can believe it! I can't. We're celebrating by going out for dinner at her favorite place for scallops. I'll probably have salmon with couscous. It should be nice. I'm starving too!

Hungry!

Hi! I haven't spoken with my imaginary audience for quite a while. Well, look out, I have some really riveting, thought-provoking stuff ready for you. Ready? Here it is: I'M STARVING. I've been ravenously hungry all day, and there's nothing good to eat. I had 3/4 of a shitty veggie omelette, two bowls of Golden Grahams, and now I'm scarfing down crackers. The reason is that we're going to a party tonight, which will involve drinks. Drinks on an empty stomach are never a good idea. Oh well; we'll see what happens.

Jenny's Birthday!!

It's Jenny's birthday, and to celebrate, Mom and I are taking her out for tapas. Bacon wrapped dates! I already want a glass of wine, but I don't know if I'll be able to get any what with my limited budget and all...

Internet Music

Even though I still miss Grooveshark and all the playlists I had there, I do love my Pandora station. It plays such good music! I never have to rate anything anymore, it just knows what I like and plays it, like more than 90% of the time. I don't know if this link to it will work, but here: My Pandora playlist. Soon I should turn it off and go watch more of the old debates I recorded so that I'm ready for tonight's. Then I want to read some of my Scrabble book. ("Everything Scrabble")

Sleep!

I have been getting way too much sleep. We're talking 12 hours a night, then a 2 hour nap! It's like I have mono, but I've already HAD mono! I wonder if it can still affect you. Last night I slept...I don't know, 10 hours, and took a 1.5 hour nap. ugh. The job didn't work out because I was being asked to do something I was not comfortable doing. I have no desire to work. I don't know what's wrong. I just live to go out; I constantly want to go out.