I've Been on Hiatus

Until Trump is out of office, I am not even bothering with posts on this blog because everything is asinine, and I have checked out.

Mood Lately

I haven't posted here in a really long time, and I miss writing, even though this isn't the most private way to do it, it's close! :) We've been living at this new apartment for about seven months, and I don't really like it. It's a nicer, bigger place, and I kind of like having roommates, but it doesn't feel like home. That's really hard for me. There are two rooms that are almost a waste for all of winter and most of fall because they're too cold. and the roommates don't keep the heat on in rooms they're not in. So the whole apartment is freezing. As a result, everyone spends most of their time in the bedrooms; I don't like that. I get stir crazy. I'm still not working, so I've also been climbing the walls by 8 or 9 every night dying to get out; so then I go out and spend money I don't have just to have a change of scenery. I think the two things that make me happy lately are talking to people, and going out. More of extroverted qualities than I usually have. Anxiety is a big part of my life, I think. It's been a hard year; anxiety keeps me from dealing with my life. My dad has Parkinson's and dementia and is in a nursing home, and I hardly ever go visit him. This fills me with guilt, but anxiety and depression keep me from finding good times to go. Yes, I said depression. I'm pretty sure I'm depressed; I'm sleeping more than I'm awake. I saw the doctor yesterday about changing meds, and she was the opposite of helpful, and for now, said no. I cried for an hour after I got home. Stymied. Okay, this is too much of a downer of a post; more later.