That's done.

I lost both times I played--just barely. I don't really care. It's so funny that I was so close to just blowing it off tonight; I would have had a lot more fun--that's for sure. Alas, I HAD to at least show up, or really mess things up. It's just one week. I had fun beforehand though, and that's something. Oh, and they were playing decent music, so that was a positive too. So now, I mess around on the computer, maybe apply to a few more jobs, and just chill. I like thinking of other people as doing what I'm doing. I don't like feeling like other people are out when I'm in because then I feel like I'm missing out on fun, and I hate that; also, I worry about people. I left voicemails at two temp agencies. I need to start working on lowering my anxiety levels. I haven't always been as tense as I've been lately, and I want to get rid of it; it's causing all sorts of problems for me. I notice certain people cause me more anxiety, and certain people and situations cause me less. I think in terms of life stress it's about empowering myself--taking control of stuff. Tomorrow I'm going to go talk about it, and I'm glad.