WHY is this not more interesting?!

So, I canceled my plans tonight so that I could work on my project, but I don't even want to read what I've written; how can I expect anyone else to be interested? Then that leads me to the conclusion that I'm not doing good work. I think it's an interesting topic, so what's missing? It's really frustrating me. And I'm falling into the common trap of having way too much information that I need to filter...I already have 20 pages, but I don't feel like I have the right information. Plus, now I'm getting distracted by the actual manual I'm creating...like, what information goes where? On the up side, I'm learning about people's emotions and regulating emotions, and maybe with more reading and writing, I'll learn how to regulate my own emotions. Maybe I can work on learning how to WAIT before acting. When I feel full of emotions, I feel that I have to act on them immediately, and it's like I can't stop myself. I always feel like my emotions have full control over me. Does everyone feel like that? I don't think so. How do you gain control over your emotions? How do you resist the urge to act on a particular emotion? What do you do when you want to share your emotions with people when that's not appropriate? How do you know what's appropriate? What if you don't care? These are some things that maybe I can work on.