From the year 2000, notes I took while apparently very bored at a job. I think I was temping as a receptionist.
"1. Why are the smallest bugs the hardest to kill?
Question of the day: Why is there something rather than nothing? AAAAAAAAHHHHHHH
Answer: how the fuck should I know?
Maybe NOTHING is impossible. As a matter of fact, does "nothing" even exist? I'll look it up in a minute, but I THINK "nothing" means the absence of anything.
Relevant definitions:
Nothing: not anything; absence of anything perceptible; one having no existence; having no quantitative value (zero)
Nothingness: unoccupied space: emptiness.
When does NOTHING exist?
is air anything?
Has air ever not existed?
If air counts as "anything," and air has always existed, then nothing has never existed; or rather, there has always been something instead of nothing.
So maybe by "something", you mean something more than air. Well, air is made out of what? (nitrogen and oxygen)
atoms-->elements-->air
Is there anything that is NOT made out of atoms?
I don't think so.
So...now it gets tricky!
What's the word I'm thinking of? Morph??
Morphology: studying the structure of living organisms.
So, atoms are constantly moving, right? And the structure of things can change, right? (Probably based on the movement of the atoms). So, out of one thing, e.g. air, could come another thing, right? That's what I'm thinking of as Morphing or whatever that word is. The structure of things changes, which produces new things, and so on, etc. That's how "something" came to be.
FUCK IT, I DON'T KNOW. AHHH.
Everything is in a constant state of motion. With motion comes change. With change, comes the existence of new things.
Big bang theory: the universe originated billions of years ago in a violent eruption from a single point of high density and temperature. (Find out why)
Evolution: existing species of plants and animals have developed from previously existing species through a process of gradual change. (Darwinism comes later)....develop through natural selection.
I don't know what to write I don't know what to write, I don't know what to write. What to write? What to write? What to write? What to write? What to write?....
9:24 a.m. June 27, 2000
I don't think I feel like writing. I wish I was younger than 27. I wish I had never gained weight. I REALLY wish I brought a book. I wish I already had my degree. I wish I had money so I could buy a book and lunch and pay rent, gas, electric, phone. I wish this computer wasn't locked.
Hm. 9:28.
JOKES:
NONE. Oops. Just turned on radio full-blast!
Candy is calling. 'Nicooooolllle.' "Nniiccooollllleeeeee" "Look at us. Just look. Do it. DO IT!" 9:41!! WOO HOO
Look, a desk. There's a phone, it's black, there's papers, a computer. OK...at lunch, I will cash my check, and BUY a fucking BOOK! Maybe I can finish it by tomorrow. OOOOh, I SURE do hope so.
And tomorrow, I'll bring MacBible.
This is really good, in some ways, that I can't use the computer. More in touch with myself? Something like that.
It should be cathartic to have nothing to do all day...right? WRITE! Rrrrriiiiiggghhhhtt.
I should go play pool after work. Because I'M on a pool league (alternate, but still!)
How to upgrade to power pc.
Stuff to look for:
dresser, desk, pool cue, phone
Try to get job doing word processing or something I can do from home at night.
Good Words:
usufruct: law. The right to utilize and enjoy the profits and advantages of something, as property, belonging to another.
Mordacious-->sarcastic-->caustic
Aphorism: brief statement of truth.
Bibulous: Given to, or marked by drinking alcoholic beverages
Pretentious: Making claims of excellence. --extravagantly showy
Pedantic: Narrow concern for book learning and formal rules.
Sophomoric: immature and ill-informed, yet overly confident.
Prosaic: literal, ordinary, lacking in imagination.
Hubris: arrogance.
Recommendations
Merril Lynch, Chase, Prudential
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1120
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820
(and a few more calculation) My guess is that I was figuring out what I would make at that job.
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