ugh, research findings

that's the part that I'm on now...findings from my own research. The problem is that I maybe you should have done more research (not just a survey), and I wish I had more information. People don't like to really expound apparently. So, I just wrote two sentences about how many respondents have received training in emotional intelligence. I can't leave the paragraph that short, so what do I write about next that relates to that? urgh...road block.

Yes

walked 1/2 mile; however, I ate veggie omelette and 2 pancakes! bad.
Plus, I still need/plan to do some more exercise. I will update this with whether or not I successfully carried out my plan. And..I started a new blog just for logging my exercise so that this will not be so boring...it's already pretty boring...
Oh, so...yes...I did aerobics today. yay me.

and one beer and half of a turkey sandwich with avocado and some saucy stuff.
ate the other half and a glass of wine. And I'm seriously considering ice cream...
...yup, I had chocolate ice cream.

Yes, sorta

I did yoga...not the whole thing though, but worked the core, legs, arms...

ate um, left over steak and green beans, apple, Cheerios, some Wheat Thins, and some mixed nuts.
(oh yeah, and a piece of chocolate.)

Woke up earlyish.

Let's Talk About the Weather!

Wow, it's sooooo nice outside today.
Can you believe it's the end of December?
Well, ya know the snow's comin.
dur du dur du dur.

Productive Day

Puzzle on the back of the Honey Nut Cheerios box: solved.
BAM! in your face!

Last Night's Dream(s)

I had a dream that:

1. my leg was deformed after my fall, and I just realized it.
2. I said 'hi' to 2 people who didn't say 'hi' back (or just weren't friendly)
3. I was prank calling businesses asking for Michael, then the second-in-charge, and saying that I needed to order a large supply of paper right away. (the prank went over great: people were all very amused.)

It's my favorite when my unconscious tries to be creative...

Yes

Let's try this.
Every day that I work out I put a yes in the title, and I use this as a bLOG...go figure.

walked 1/2 mile and did
26 minutes fat-burning pilates

ate General Tso's chicken
and will probably snack later...let's see...

woke up very late.

Research Methodology

Knowledge Base

Self Analysis

Sometimes I do nervous tics when I am angry. Sometimes when I feel like I'm being treated unfairly. Sometimes when I feel guilty. Sometimes when I feel like I'm being squelched and can't say how I feel and be accepted. Sometimes it's when I sense tension or anger around me.

I do not do nervous tics when I am focused on a task. I do not do nervous tics when I'm in an environment where I am comfortable. I do not do this when I'm having a conversation I enjoy. I do not do this when I am relaxed and people around me are relaxed.

I think.....

Right now I feel a little wounded like I need to cry, but I don't want to, so I'm going to stop thinking about this right now.

Okay, not quite. I'm still thinking about me while I read. I can't stand waiting for discomfort to go away. It's like I can't focus on anything else. This is part of why I hate arguments...I will do almost anything just to stop someone from being angry (or sad or disappointed or other negative emotions..especially if they're because of me). As my friend put it, it's really annoying that while someone is mad at me for something I've done, I am asking for reassurance that they will get over it and we'll be okay (i.e. they won't leave me forever; we'll still be friends or whatever). She says that of course we'll be okay and she'll get over it, but don't ask while she's upset. Okay going to try to move on...again...

Oh, what a tangled web we weave

How do you know if it's better to see someone you like sooner, or to wait? As soon as you start second-guessing, that seems like game-playing, which I don't believe in. If you want to see someone, then you should try to see that person. But then again, you don't know how the other person feels about seeing you, so then you get insecure and think, why would I make myself vulnerable if that person isn't even interested in seeing me? Then your mind says, well, I'm sure that person likes to see me too. Oh, I should see that person. And back and forth. If the person doesn't like you as much as you like that person, then to have you showing up all the time would be weird or annoying or unnoticed or...etc. If the person likes you as much as you like that person, then maybe that person is really happy to see you. Now add in the fact that most people keep their emotions pretty secret, and you're completely confused. But I feel like I want to see people I like more often because (partially) I want more of a social life.

Oh EM Gee

How how HOW am I expected to get any work done with the existence of the Internet? Link upon link upon link are just begging me to spend just a few minutes reading just this one more article. I've spent the last three hours doing this! Oh, and I applied for one job, and read two emails. (the other 25 were deleted without reading) Bad for someone on the ADHD spectrum. Here's the one I'm currently on: Depression and Sleep: Getting the Right Amount
what brought me to that: Sinead. What brought me to that? waste of time. Before that was Brains. Before that was Minds. Before that: The Quest to Understand Consciousness. And on and on and on.

Embedding

Okay, seriously, I need to find out: If a video does not show the embedding code to copy and paste, how can you do it yourself? If you want to paste an article without just copying and pasting the text, is there a way to do that? I guess I could take a screen shot, but that's not going to work very well. I'm going to have to look into this. Who wants to click on a link?

Mildly Interesting

This was a little interesting, since I know so little about it. However, is anyone else sort of disappointed by how Scientific American has changed lately? It seems like they're trying so hard to be American that they are not being as Scientific. I'd rather have less people read it and get better information. But, that doesn't make money.

Short Article

Oh Noes!

Poor kittehs.
(I know I'm an idiot when I find myself flinching and going, 'awwww' when fake evil kittehs are shot. Stupid shoot-em-up games.

In Sum Knee Uh

grumble grumble. It's 4:30 in the morning, and I haven't slept yet. I tried. I rested. My mind was racing really fast with thoughts. So, now I'm having my chocolate milk -- because I'm 4 years old -- and then I should be able to sleep. Then I have to wake up at about 9 to go look at places in the burbs with Mom.

LAST PAIRS - Lori's Designer Shoes, The Sole of Chicago

These seem to get worse and worse as time goes by. Still, any pair under $20 tempts me just because. How many pairs of shoes is too many pairs? I should maybe throw some away or give some away. Sadly, my feet are too small for my shoes to fit a lot of people. I tried to give a pair away to a 13-year old, and they were too small. When do people's feet stop growing?
LAST PAIRS - Lori's Designer Shoes, The Sole of Chicago

I have nothing to say

so it is a good think I'm writing about it. I had glog. Two days until my fun league :) and three days until Mom is here. Finally got Noah's and Zoe's Chanukah gifts--free wrapping and all! Thank you, Toys Et Cetera! Now I just have to make homemade fudge for the first time. Wish me luck; that'll be later in the week, I suppose...unless I feel like trying tomorrow. I'm still hoping to get some stuff to give some homeless people; it's just tough when I am only a few steps away from that myself. I like giving $5 gift cards to McDonald's or similar, and maybe I can give some warm socks. I should have my niece be in on it, so she can feel more fulfilled.

wow

I had a dream about brushing my hair.

Come on, interview!

I just applied for an Associate Editor position, and I would like to get that job. I hope I get an interview!

Words: "Proselytize"

proselytize

American Heritage Dictionary| WordNet


1. To induce someone to convert to one's own religious faith.
2. To induce someone to join one's own political party or to espouse one's doctrine.

v.tr.
To convert (a person) from one belief, doctrine, cause, or faith to another.

proselytization pros'e·ly·ti·za'tion (-tĭ-zā'shən) n.
proselytizer pros'e·ly·tiz' er n."

mmmnyum nyum yum

I heart baba ganouj. (sp??)

SOPA vote

Vote is going on now in the House Judiciary. I'm now watching the part where they're discussing the amendments; this is where I remembered to watch. I"m not sure what I've missed yet.

Okay this will go well into next year, I think. There are over 70 amendments to be voted upon. So far 2, and probably 3, amendments have been proposed, and they have all been rejected. They all made sense. There are a few reps that make perfect sense and understand that they don't understand. Then there are several who are clueless, and know they're clueless, but don't seem to care or understand the dire consequences of their bullheaded ignorance.

Aweioualu

That was supposed to say "Seriously?" but my fingers were in the wrong position. Anyway, when I go to ChicagoJobs.com, when I search for a job, the first thing it asks me is "City"? duuuuh-uhhhh-uhhhh!

duuuuh....

Apparently, I've been a day behind. Yesterday was Tuesday, and I was thinking yesterday that today would be Tuesday. So...tonight I HAVE to go play pool, so maybe I'll go practice tomorrow for free during the day. I don't even know where we'll play tonight. It's supposed to be home, but there apparently is going to be a show...that would be very awkward to have both going on, so hopefully, we'll play somewhere else. My project is finally moving along pretty nicely. I'm finishing up the paper (done with lit. review), and working on training manual. The negative thing is that the shelter I was helping at closed. ssshhhhh. (they're the ones who are supposed to get manual; so who do I use now? I'm keeping that on the D.L.)

here.

Mindfulness Meditation

This helps me relax every time.
Reminder: okay, it seems a little corny at times, but for it to work, you just need to stop the criticizing and mocking that your mind does. Do what it says, and every time, it helps! Well, after doing the body scan, I don't like that one as much as some others that I've done. So far I've done that and the mindfulness on breathing. That one's really relaxing. Next one is body and breath, I think.

"Obstreperous"

1.
resisting control or restraint in a difficult manner; unruly.
2.
noisy, clamorous, or boisterous: obstreperous children.


from dictionary.com

Marty's Pic of Herat, Afghanistan

I am so fascinated by anything about the Middle East because I know so little about it.

Interesting

My friend Marty just arrived in Dubai on his way to Afghanistan as a part of this work force. It's nice to hear some encouraging news from this part of the world. My mom and I were considering a trip to Dubai at one point and decided against it for fear of safety, so I'm anxious to hear about his experiences.

Bloomberg News Article

I love my niece and nephew!

I think I should track their stories here so I don't forget, and I can remind them when they're older and embarrass them. Just kidding.

But seriously, Zoe who is seven years old told her mom this week: "Mom, something is missing. I don't know what, but it's been missing for awhile." As her mom put it, her seven-year old is experiencing existential angst. After I got over thinking that's so charming and smart and all that, I feel kind of heart broken that she feels that something is missing. Maybe she should go on a soul-searching journey. Or maybe she needs a puppy. I better not mention that one. Oh, and then later in the week, she was helping her mom fold laundry, and there were some left over socks without pairs, and Zoe said, "those are the divorced ones." oh my gosh.

Now I need some new Noah stories!

UPdate:
Ask, and you shall receive!
Although I Heard from my mom who heard from my brother, the story is that Noah asked my brother how babies got out. After my brother answered, he said, “that’s really funny!” Later he was overheard enlightening Zoe who was “shocked”

Note to Me:

Read Titus Andronicus (sp?)
Then think about possible similarities between that and the Stanford Prison Experiment. Maybe there are none, but good excuse to read the play anyway.
Charlie Rose Excerpt on Titus

sigh

I can't concentrate on work because I'm too busy daydreaming.

I can't get enough of these!

nerd

Tomorrow List:

not in this order...
get up early (that one's in order)
Get revisions done and sent back to Ellen on a.p.
Go to the bank
Start Exercising Again (pilates? Kenpo? aerobics?..will my recovering knee be okay?)
Apply for many, many, many more jobs (Craig's List, CareerBuilder, Monster, oDesk, and...)
Dishes if not done tonight
Go through papers and shred

I Need To Get Some Work Done

or should I wake up early tomorrow to do it? I really don't feel productive right now. I brushed my teeth and washed my face. I think that's about enough for a Sunday.
Plus, I have the place to myself and want to enjoy it more than doing stupid dishes and stuff.

Nicole's iTunes Stats

I just realized that iTunes has a feature where you can see how often you've listened to each of your songs.
Top of my List:
Apple Blossom by The White Stripes...95 listens.
Music Box by Regina Spektor.....65 listens.
I Want A Hippopotamus For Christmas...58 plays.
Brush, Brush, Brush by Of Montreal
Energy by Apples in Stereo
The News From Your Bed by Bishop Allen
Wuthering Heights by Kate Bush
Mushaboom by Feist
O Susanna by James Taylor
Sunny Skies by James Taylor,
Humble Bee by John Wesley Harding


Least Played (a whole bunch were marked 0, which I don't think is accurate, but the first one listed as one play):
Ain't That a Kick in the Head by Dean Martin.
Something's Fishy at Camp Wiganishie,
Bandy Bandy by Zap Mama,
Mucho Mongo by The Walkmen,
Zaz Turned Blue by Was (not Was),
Symphony No.3: Menuetto: viv by Schubert.

dreams

I like when I wake up and remember a dream and can tell that my brain was trying to work stuff out. I don't remember much, but it just involved someone being reassuring and sweet basically. I wish my mind wouldn't make things so difficult with second-guessing and doubt.

gggrrr

Stupid alarm clock just wouldn't shut up this morning. I finally had to actually just get up to make the thing stop.

I Forgot How Much I Love Rowlf!!

Killer Instinct

Isn't working in Words With Friends.
Some people seem like they're just not trying.
They'll put a word right NEXT to a triple word tile and get like 7 points or something.
So, I get frustrated and try to help them. Like, I'll put a word so that an 'e' is right next to triple word and in the open. I might as well send them an invitation saying, Please, take the points. But do they? NO. Maybe they don't understand what the TW on the board means???? I guess I should practice not caring and just destroying them, but what if it's some 9-year old playing his first game of Words With Friends or something? These are the thoughts that get in my way...I'd hate to ruin it forever for someone. P.S. Play me!

Fried A!!!

Really, Nicole?! REALLY??

I just got sent into a 2-minute giggle fit sitting here by myself because I stumbled across (not upon, mind you) someone on Facebook named "Chairman Meow." I think I've even made that joke before, or at least heard it, but it is really cracking me up right now. stupid Communist cat!

I Feel Like I'm on a Sinking Ship

Kyoto Protocol
Everything everywhere is falling apart, and I don't know how in the world things are going to get better...the economy, the environment, power-relations and foreign affairs, bipartisanship, healthcare inaccessibility for so many, malnutrition and obesity, and about umpteen other things that I'm sure I'm forgetting right now.

oh, the messages you'll get...

Email from friend saying simply, "This is your fault and I blame you completely."

Voicemail from mom on cellphone saying, "Ho ho ho. If you're there, pick up. I'll wait.."

Does anyone know anything about....

ODesk? I sort of trust it so far from what I've read, but I'm just wondering if anyone knows anything from experience. If you do, could you comment? Thanks.

oh geez

I just applied for a job at "Bubbles Academy"! That would fit, I think. Do I get to sell balloons? BLOW BUBBLES?!!! It actually said in the job description that you need to have SQ (silliness quotient). Omg. Am I not working on an entire project on that topic? Oh wait, that's just a little different.

Learning

Thin client

after watching part of "Triumph of the Nerds" again ended up on a tangent where this term came up. So now I only kinda understand what it is. That's more than I did know though.

This has been in the back of my head for a while: Mastering