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I can't stop thinking, and when I think stuff I want to record it in case I can't remember it later when it might be helpful..then if it's not helpful later, I can just delete it. So, one: I want to clarify some things: I think people think that if someone cries and is emotional and gets all hysterical-seeming at times, then that person is weak or feels bad about themselves (herself=me)...I don't. I just have the thoughts and feelings that other people drink and do drugs to avoid (I could be wrong..just an opinion). Also, I remember coming to the conclusion years and years ago..I don't remember when...early 20s maybe?) that other people are kind of a pain in the ass and really hard to please. sometimes I just please them because it's easier and deal with myself later. but if it keeps up, then I have to assert.