This week

(Warning: I'm speaking off the cuff, so this may not be very eloquently stated) My "assignment" this week is to go out, have fun, trust myself, and not worry about how I'm coming across to people. Seriously. That doesn't sound too bad. The last three week, aside from a few glimmers, have been absolutely horrible where my mood is concerned. I don't think I've ever felt as bad as I've been feeling. But if I'm around people (especially ones whom I like), it makes a world of difference. When I'm the most down is in the morning and by myself with not enough to do. I desperately need a job, more to do, and friends. Also, I need to trust in myself and that people like me. I always feel like I'm constantly being tested, and one wrong move, and I'll lose people. So I'm going to try hard to trust myself more. This week: it doesn't matter so much WHAT I do, just that I have fun and kind of let go. Therapy. Also, I just got an interview at another temp agency tomorrow morning. They have some "exciting opportunities"--we'll see. Jenny and I are going to go look at some apartments together later in the week. I haven't wanted to have a roommate when that time comes, but maybe it wouldn't be the worst thing in the world for a while. But she wants to stay in Oak Park; I'd rather be in the city..but again, I should keep my options open. I could save more money sharing rent.