Hoppy Easter!

I had a fun time at Mom's; I kicked her butt in Boggle. And we played a game where you write down 8 celebrities' names and you have to act out one of them and the other guesses which celebrity you are. I was still thinking about how to act it out, and my mom guessed Bambi correctly. She said she could tell by my eyes; she knows me too well! Crazy.

I may have to go out somewhere

I'm really bored today.

I feel stoopid

I just feel like I don't have a grasp on information. I can't concentrate to even remember what I just heard. duh. Also, I want to have an area of expertise. Everyone I know has a subject that they can teach others about, and I don't feel like I have one. I just feel dumb. dumbdumbdumb. dumdum.

Stuffed

I always have so much fun with family and friends. Passover Seder Overview I really like the sound of the blessing that goes baruch atah adonai...

One hour

Passover Seder begins in one hour at Eric's and Jill's. I'm starving!

one win, one loss

It stinks to be the one to make the team lose.

I'M GONNA WRECK IT!

I finally saw Wreck It, Ralph! I liked it; it was cute and funny.

Too cold and windy!

We went geocaching for the first time today, which seems like it could be fun, but it was too cold.

Economics

I wish I understood economics better, but from what I've heard so far, although he is in the minority in his beliefs, I trust Paul Krugman. That seems like a 'well, duh' thing to say, but it seems like a lot of people disagree with him. I need to keep looking into this. I'm not sure if I will. It makes my brain hurt.

Inspiration

Article on improving your life

Spongebob Philosophy

I got ten right! Quiz

Interesting article

from Utne

Some Questions to Think About for Career

from nextavenue.org: "Questions You’ll Want to Answer

Below are some questions I think you should ponder. After you’ve answered them, you may want to engage a career coach to help get unstuck. A coach can provide support, guidance, accountability and enthusiasm.

* Do you have a passion that you could turn into your next career or job? Ideally, pursuing your passion will allow you to earn a decent income by melding your professional and personal interests.

* Do you need to make as much money as you earn now? Maybe you have been mindlessly cranking out work just for the income. If that’s the case, it could be that you’ve used your job as a way of “keeping score.”

* What kind of problems do you like to solve? Once you’ve determined the answer, think about the customers or clients who’d need those problems solved. Then you can pursue them.

* What achievements or outcomes make you feel your work is meaningful?

* What would you like your legacy to be?"

I might be biased

It was so nice to see my adorable niece and nephew today. We even played some dance game on the wii and it was okay that Zoe laughed at me...she said she tried not to, but couldn't help it. Fair enough. And we had pizza and homemade cupcakes and homemade soda with one of those soda stream thingies. It worked really well. Yum.

Seriously?

"Question 8 In one country's currency, there are 40 dribbles in a gibble, and 4 gibbles in a zabble. How many dribbles are there in half a zabble?" Answer: FUCK. YOU.

I'm only happy when it rains

Garbage! I'm happy lots of other times too, but I do enjoy a rainy day! I have found excuses to take the garbage out twice this afternoon.

brains

Watching shows about the brain put me in the same contemplative-type state as I get watching certain romantic movies (like earlier tonight). What's up with that? I guess they're just things that spark my interest. I wish I was smart enough to be some sort of brain scientist. I guess psychology is as close as I can get, but I wish there were classes available to learn about the brain like you learn about it on Charlie Rose's series. It seems like you have to be in graduate school to even get to consider taking a course on the brain. That's just one more reason I wish I was in grad school already. Oh, and I really like Alan Alda; he reminds me of my dad (he was on the Charlie Rose episode I just watched). Okay enough babbling. . . for now.

doo dee doo dee doo

The Charlie Rose episode that's on at 11 better be the brain series one. Otherwise, I missed it. I could still watch it from his site, but it's not the same. David Cross was great on Real Time. and did the first guy call Bill 'Bob'? I think so...when he patted him on the leg. He probably got flustered.

Maybe??

I just had a thought: maybe anxieties are like bad dreams....they seem really scary and real until you say them out loud. Then they seem a little silly. So, say more anxieties out loud. Hmm, I wonder...

I like things that make me think.

"love the people who deserve to be loved." I may not have gotten the quote right, but I still kind of like it. From a cheesy movie that I'm enjoying; I thought I didn't like it, but I'm liking it tonight. Oh shit, Charlie Rose..gotta watch that too. And Bill Maher. But Seriously, what I don't like about movies is that I'm one of those idiots who believes in them. Then I stand in front of the mirror and get reality back. I'm not a beautiful 20-something with makeup and earrings and a new haircut. My hair is dirty and with gray hairs and my face has blotches on it. I could do myself up and look better, but that's not my point right now. I get sucked in. Romantic scenes at bars..intimate conversations on stoops...they make me want to go to a bar and sit on a stoop. But if I did that, it wouldn't continue on like in the movie. It would be completely different. Completely different can be really good too...but just sometimes, and still different. I guess that's where you have to relinquish some control and take things as they come rather than how you expect them. Maybe I'll write more about this later...if the urge comes. Well, also....I want so much to be as idealistic as I think I am, but sometimes I scoff at sweet stuff because...I don't know...maybe I'm closing myself off from it so as to not get hurt? It's like Eric said a long time ago...that I'm the most cynical idealist he's ever known. (something like that) and it's like Mom says...sometimes when I have the hardest time remembering something or saying something...that means you're getting close to the real stuff. I really want things to happen like the romantic scenes in movies and like the fun and happy parts of commercials. Yes, I'm corny like that. I mean, I guess everyone probably does, but most people have enough sense to give up on it. (I say that somewhat facetiously because I don't actually think we should give up on it.) I love when things go well.

weekly question

I don't think I'll go out by myself tonight, but it's possible. I'm not sure if I'm catching a cold or not; I'm stuffy. If I feel well, I'll consider going out. Update: Nah, I'm not going out. I forgot that Charlie Rose Brain Series episode is on tonight, as is Real Time with Bill Maher, and although I could watch the later, I think I'll just watch them live. Maybe I'll have some tea, since I don't feel 100% great.

quote

“I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination.” - Jimmy Dean

Dork!

Note to self: when leaving message for potential job, do not fiddle with pen that says, "welll, hellooooo there" when you press it down. Also, know ahead of time which phone number you want to be called back at. ugh!

ugh

That was so annoying. I listen to people, but I don't like to be micro-managed at all. I was so jittery I couldn't do anything...except when left to my own devices--then I did okay. blagh. Then I started losing my voice a little for some reason. Then the stupid guy I was playing started screaming along with the song while I was trying to shoot my ball. I'm glad to be home.

to think about

Not having a job right now: manageable. Not ever having a job: not manageable. Think in manageable terms. fill in the sentence (?)

paraphrase of Bradley Cooper on Charlie Rose

Learn everything; then let it go.

Think

What are you passionate about? answers as they come to me, but keep thinking... piano (music), family, close relationships, writing (sometimes), reading (sometimes),

Want or Need

More people like Julie piano lessons again other things to go do less pressure on myself see forest and not just trees (aside from the obvious: JOB!)

omg it 's late

I should be in bed.

Monday@10

Hurray! I'm so glad I talked to Dad today. We're meeting for breakfast Monday.

not sure

I'm not sure if I should go out tonight or not. For now, I'm going to take a nap. I cleaned for my mom and then we hung out, and now I feel exhausted.