Journal Entries 1997

This post is pretty immature. haha. not too tall an order!
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"I want someone average tall (5'10"-6'2") preferably with blue eyes and dark brown hair. Thin, but not a stick. But all this doesn't matter that much. I want certain personality traits more than anything. I want someone who can handle his emotions; in other words, does not store them up and blow up one day. Preferably, someone who's had therapy as an adult, is close, but not too close with family, is very open-minded, flexible, laid-back, strong (as a person), like, has his own personality.
Must be passionate, sensitive, able to express how he feels, artistic/musical. Refined, sophisticated, but also MUST be fun, funny, intelligent, must amuse and interest ME, not just BE amused and interested BY me. Liberal, somewhat old-fashioned and chivalrous. Well-read, not watch much T.V., love to go out, does not care about gas mileage, likes to explore new things, likes and wants to be near big cities.
Life Goals, Responsibility, etc: these are more complex -- I want someone who is responsible and has goals, but is not controlled by them. I don't want someone who's just on a track in life, and I'm part of that track. I want someone who wants me, period, then together, we'll explore tracks and find what we each want.
What Jenny and Bret say about who I like doesn't really bother me. I don't care if someone doesn't know exactly what he wants, or doesn't make a lot of money, or doesn't have a car, or lives in a studio, whatever. Now, if it came to marriage, I would just want us each to do our part to be well enough off to be happy with how we're living. If we want to live better, we work more, if we hate our jobs, we find something new, if we're bored, we move. I want us to like the same type of people, so we can all truly be friends, not just deal with them. I want someone who lives at night, like me, has lots of energy, is a romantic, (A LOT, like me), is somewhat impulsive, caring, honesty, etc are a given. No emotional issues -- everyone has issues, but not involving emotions. NO passive-aggressive, codependent, bitter, resentful, flaky, wishy-washy, weak people, no one who holds grudges or does things they don't want to, then holds it against you. I want someone who ALWAYS tells me how he feels at the time, is willing to compromise, etc. I want someone who, we enjoy each other's company and get away from each other once in a while naturally because we have our own lives, to avoid getting tired of each other. I want someone with whom I can share. Like, we can be together, totally bored, but not bored with each other -- so that we can enjoy being bored together. Not bored like, "why the hell am I with this person?!"
I want friends who are nocturnal, energetic, fun, funny, liberal, laid-back, open-minded, artistic, musical, sophisticated, very intelligent, witty, not ruled by their responsibilities, generally want to be with their friends, not alone, if they have significant others, bring them along sometimes, but not always, unless they're also part of the group of friends, etc.