sad

Mom is upset with me for not calling for 2.5 weeks. She was very hurtful, I guess because she's hurt. She has to go in for surgery as soon as possible, which sucks...she does not need ANY more surgery EVER. So I'm worried, but then she's really mad that I haven't called. And she said, 'i can hardly WAIT for this stuff to start happening to you.' WOW! I said don't ever say anything like that. She said that I just don't get it. Maybe I need a call.' So, now I'm fighting back tears because I have to leave for pool..I don't even want to go. Please let my mom be okay, and I will continue trying to call more often. What is my problem? I may have to go out there again. so sad. I need so much more support, but I need to be so much more supportive too. ugh.