boo hoo

I think this might be a panic attack..I'm bawling and can't catch my breath and hurt my toe and am carrying on. I'm by myself because I've been pissing off Scott constantly lately. I can't stand the tension and anger and my fingers are shaking. And after 4 or 5 weeks of loving that he hasn't been drinking, he bought liquor tonight and that started me being so upset. I'm just miserable and alone and there's no worse time to feel that way than on a beautiful summer weekend.