IF...

If I go tonight, I will either walk or take the bus. I won't be playing. If I don't go today, I will probably go early on Saturday. I was relaxed and had a really nice time yesterday. But I hate going and not having a good time or being overly nervous. It will be an impulse decision. I wish people wanted to see me, and I wish that people would sometimes let me know that if it's true. But I think no one gives a shit about anyone--not just me. Whatever happens happens...show up or don't show up...it doesn't matter. If you wanna go, go...I don't like that kind of mentality. I Like and am more used to a little more formality. I fight against that because I know cool people aren't like that, but whatever.